Beyond My Downward Spiral
You asked on the front page about my qualifications. It is true I am not a doctor of any kind. I am a person that has come through the fire and found some things to help me. I did try to visit mental health professionals before all of the big stuff hit but it was not helpful for me. I learned that because I am reasonably smart that I can run circles around most mental health people. So I knew I had to take action on what I did know in order to beat my own depression. It is still kind of day to day but much better than a few months ago.
My Spiral into the Depths of Depression
This all hit mostly in Spring of 2006. I had a good job, two great kids, a large house, and a career job that I was barely hanging on to. MY wife was upset for not having enough money to spend and even more upset if I tried to do anything more to bring more money in the home. I have not ever been addicted to anything, I have not e ever done drugs and I drink alcohol maybe two times a month and then only one or two drinks. My parents smoked and drank constantly and that probably helped in my aversion but I am not a crusader against either one. Just don’t choose it for my life.
So that Spring 2006 I received a letter my house was being foreclosed in mid February. First week in March my wife moved out with my two kids away from me and the house. They moved to a rent house two blocks away and I found myself having to owe for her rent and my bills too. Then The 15th of March (beware the Ides of March) I was told my dept at work was no longer part of the game plan for the company I was with. Within 45 days the 3 of the five most devastating things that happens to people did happen.
Over the next 3 months I went through all of the really bad parts of depression but still stayed away from alcohol or anything else that would permanently destroy my life. I have always had a close walk with God and that has helped significantly. But also my depression has hung on to this very day. I did get a job, but it took me two hours away from my kids. I miss them terribly.

This is My Why
And last year she moved back to her family and an old boyfriend, now husband; and lives five hours away from me.
My new home and new job allowed a new beginning. The problem was that the habits of the last few months had taken my thought processes to some dark and binding places. When a person is caught in negative thinking then it is difficult for that person to see opportunities around them.
I much of my past I have always read lots of books. Many of them were self help and personal development books. My favorite is one called Spirit of Apollo It is on my bookshelf six feet from me even now. It is a favorite more for sentiment now than anything else. The content of that book is a spin off of the classic Think and Grow Rich. That book is almost 100 years old so it is public doamin and lots of sites have free downloads. You will find it and lots more at White Dove Books. The point is that going back to basics and refocusing my thoughts on the positive ideas in those books is what brought me from my depression. This website is an extension of me seeing the opportunity around me.
The posts I offer are the unfolding of what I have learned and what is available to help you come out of your depression too. Much of what I share is free. Some of winning takes some investment of time, or money, or energy. A lot of the time it is a combination of all three. My intent is to share enough and see you take the steps so that we can walk the beaches of the world and count our depression as a testing of character instead of a destruction of a spirit.

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